夢的解析

好久沒作怪夢了，在凌晨四點被嚇醒
之後再也睡不著，害我現在頭好昏
這種被嚇醒的夢比較容易記得情節
像其他的美夢類的睡醒就會忘光了
內容是這樣子的：

我在路上碰到了堂姊夫（其實那個人長的一點都不像）
他邀我去他家看一歲大的小姪女
到了之後，堂姐（長的50%像）隨便跟我哈拉一下後
要我自己進屋找小姪女，走進去後，果然看到她在地上爬
白白胖胖的臉，黑黑大大的眼睛加上綁在兩邊的小馬尾
超級天真可愛的。厲害的是，她還認得我，爬過來要跟我玩
我對她說，叫舅舅，沒想到她竟然已經會講話了，還跟我亂哈拉一番。
長的可愛的小孩的宿命免不了被我亂捏臉，亂親一頓
之後叫她親舅舅一下也乖乖照辦了，到目前為止都還是溫馨喜劇
一親之下，似乎很喜歡我，開始親個不停
到後來簡直是狂穩一通，叫她不要玩了也不聽，完全無法控制
我開始覺得不對把她拉開時，整個表情都變了
看不到小孩子的天真可愛，只見一個兇暴猙獰臉孔
就像電影裡鬼片常出現的一樣，真是嚇死我了
而且力氣大的驚人，我就在邊喊堂姐來幫忙時嚇醒了

醒來後反正翻來覆去也睡不著，就來檢討一下這個夢
在是一個正常的世界的假設下
那妹妹發生了什麼事呢？
會變成這樣是親了我之後，這麼說有問題的應該是我？
對了，最近又長起痘痘，每天睡前都要擦藥
親了臉就吃到了藥，而擦痘痘的藥吃下去會怎樣沒有人曉得
尤其是小孩子，因為體重輕，劑量效應較明顯
而且小孩的肝臟微粒體酵素系統發展尚未完全
使體內解毒能力不足，有可能造成中毒反應，影響神經系統的正常運作
讓情緒不穩定、暴怒甚至使腎上腺素分泌激增
這些又可能是最近唸一堆毒化物的資料的後遺症
整個加起來就變成了這個怪夢。
妹妹對不起，妳還是很可愛，是舅舅害妳中毒了～

千萬的窗

安靜的夜晚在陽台看著外面的景色
突然想起一首很喜歡的歌，” 逃亡 ”裡的一句話
「我看著山下千萬的窗，誰不曾感到失望」
一直不懂，為什麼看著很多的窗戶，人會覺得失望

突然浮現一種感受
山下百千戶的窗，許許多多的家庭
那哪裡才是屬於自己的呢？
現在住的家是爸媽努力了一輩子換來的

最瞭解我的人不就是自己嗎？
既然沒有什麼後顧之憂，就勇敢去闖吧！

Go home, Tamsui

It’s the first sunny weekend since we moved to Tamsui. Thanking to amazing good traffic and late downing summer sunset, I could take this picture from the building top. Just coming back from Haulie, I think Tamsui make me feel much more comfortable.
I can put on causal clothes and take a 10 min walk to old street eating local food, shopping on night market, reading in kingstone bookstore…, then go home couching on sofa watching TV with finger food. Without fatigue as well as money waste of being an tourist, I can be totally release on weekend. My god! Now I can proudly say, I live in Tamsui and I love it.

Hualie trip on Black Friday-two

Taking a brief rest, we went to the night market for the most important goal of this trip- the local food^^. The first station, of course, is “Good smell Dumpling Soup?”(液香扁食), I believe every tourist who has ever done some survey on internet would like to give a try. We were all tired and hungry. It’s not hard to find it. But Black Fri waked again, it’s already closed. How was it possible? It’s only 7:00 p.m. in Friday night!

Walking with a little frustration, we went to another store “Day Dumpling Soup”(戴記扁食). It tasted not bad comparing to Chungli city’s, and maybe I should feel satisfied. Horsing around the city, we ate other famous local food suggested on somebody’s blog. Included Oyster omelet, Vegetarian gelatin(愛玉), Justice street steamed stuffed bun（公正包子）…”. They were ok but not as incredible as they described. Among them I thought oyster omelet is the best one. But my friend insisted it’s just so so comparing to Kaohsiung city’s. I doubted about that since he always balloons what he said.

We finished all food we should eat at about 8:30. I planed to go to pub at night. There were two famous pubs also suggested on someone’s blog. Standing in front of their doors, we checked them for a while. They seemed empty inside. Of course, how could young people come here in such early time. Scanning map again and again, finally we went to chisingtan again.

There is totally dark in chisingtan at night except very weak flickering light in the toilet. It’s enjoyable although somebody may think a little dangerous. We could see the stars sparkling in the deep black sky. Big Dipper was so clear and the wind was appropriated. We talked and laughed as four years ago in school. Something changed; something not. I sincerely hope this beautiful beach won’t change with people, with time, with desire. The clouds came. It thundered and seemed to rained soon. We rushed out of this place again.

Ten o’clock. We went to pub with excitement. Ha~ For a long time I haven’t gone to such place. There are two pubs we can choose and both famous by my survey. One friend said let God decide it. Apparently, he forgot what day is today. Followed by the indication of coin, we went into and found almost empty inside. No spicy girls, only two table other boring guys. The “bear promoting lady” came and promoted Heineken beer. After finishing cocktails, we order three glass bottles. I believed we are the only table ordered that. One bottle about 300ml costs NT130. Oh~ I must too long haven’t been to pub. We wanted the lady introduced some good place to go at night. She suggested we can go to Taroko national park to see firefly. But we thought it’s not firefly’s season and it’s dangerous to drive at night in Taroko when it thundered outside, especially after drinking the beers you sold. Then she went to talk and play with other waitress and never came back. My friend said the other beer promoting lady he met won’t be like her. They’ll chat to customers and make them happy when the store was few people inside and customers felt bored. It’s ok. We know it’s time to sleep, and after Friday, everything must be better.

Hualie trip on Black Friday-one

Long time haven’t had trip with my graduate classmates, I quite looked forward for this trip. I planed having it around June first, what surprised me is, the B&B we brought coupon was totally full. And for the sake of dragon boat festival, we had to postpone our trip to June thirteenth, the black Friday.

Taking train with one my friend, I feel good, and what makes me even excited, my colleague sends me a message “Celtics take a big reverse!” Oh my God! They make it~ It’s really a good news(Don’t blame me, I just thought Laker is too strong). When we arrive, it’s not hot and no rain in Hualie. Sitting in front of the train station to wait the other two friends picking us up, we enjoy the free moment and wind. Hey, who says black Friday is a bad day.

We plan our first stop to be Taroko national park. I’ve been here in my senior high graduating trip. But I’m too young to appreciate all these spectacles in that time. Now, I have to admit I’m getting old.><

In the middle way, it start to rain although the report says it have only 40% chance to rain. It’s getting bigger and bigger. We comfort ourselves it’s only normal afternoon rain and it will stop quickly. When we arrive visitor center, it rains too wild and force us take refuge inside. There are many unlucky tourists inside, too. What make me feel better is to see some foreign guests here, too. Ha~

We play porker killing time and wait it stop since tomorrow we have a whole day water rafting. Only today we can be here. Waiting and playing, playing and waiting, we think it’s time to give up and leave this regret to be here next time.

So, we rush to chisingtan(seven stars lake?). In the half way, rain seems turning from typhoon to its eye. Our lucky comes. It’s pity I can’t see it with the sunshine and blue sky. I miss it for a long long time. Its name is “tan”, which means lake, but in fact, it’s a beach with all kind of beautiful rocks. You can see marble, jade and many different grains and colors on them. I pick up two as souvenir, but I regret for that, because when they leave chisingtan they lose magic and become normal rocks. I promise I’ll take them back next trip.

Having less than half hour, it rains again. Shit~ I get totally wet. Our B&B is very closed here, but the unclear sign makes us get lost for long time and tired to get it. The rainy day trip is over, but black Friday is not yet to be the end.

搬家了

終於全部完工搬了進去，第一天晚上好陌生，睡的超差的
離開住了將近三十年的三重搬到這裡，
新的房子、新的床、新的沙發、新的餐具
打亂維持許多年的習慣，一種違合的感覺油然而生

連續兩天起個大早，在淡水河畔及老街亂晃，
還沒有什麼遊客的淡水還滿另感到舒服的
尤其是在這幾天沒有太陽又沒有下雨的時候

沿著河畔開了很多加有情調的茶店
但令我驚訝的，曾幾何時我對他們已經沒那麼感興趣
反而是一些舊舊的建築物較令我舒服
或許在這充滿歷史軌跡的地方
它們的存在不會那麼突兀，
也或許厭倦一些時下流行的假象


下午，在房間躺椅上看著小說
很自然的進入夢鄉，醒時突然覺得
我已經開始適應這著地方，

讓我慢慢發覺她的美吧 ！
在這裡開始一個新的生活 ，新的習慣。

末日小鎮（The last town on the earth）

作者簡介：湯瑪斯‧穆倫（Thomas Mullen）

一個被歷史遺忘的故事，沒有好人壞人，也沒有對或錯，身處這樣的時代，面對不可抗拒的天災人禍，儘管看不到希望，也只能堅強的走下去。

故事大綱：

在美國西北部深山裡有個特別的伐木小鎮，專門提供逃離暴力壓榨的工人安居樂業之地，不過對鎮長16歲的養子菲力普來說，這裡也是他生命的庇護之地，因為這裡是他有生以來第一次，體會到家庭溫暖與愛的地方。 但是當流感在鄰近城鎮大肆蔓延開來，病人咳血窒息而死，奪走無數生命時，這個尚未受到波及的伐木小鎮，在恐慌之下，決定封鎖對外的道路，派員武裝戒備，讓全鎮孤立在森林之中，以求自保。

這一天，菲力普跟他視如兄長的朋友葛拉漢，一起負責看守，卻面臨到一個兩難的抉擇：一個士兵在寒風中遠遠走來，咳嗽噴嚏不斷，懇求在小鎮借宿一夜。菲力普跟葛拉漢應該讓這個看起來生病的士兵進入小鎮，但令自己所愛的家人陷入被傳染的危險呢？還是為了保護家人，讓這個士兵在森林裡凍死餓死呢？

結果，士兵繼續往前走來，槍聲響起。小鎮從此捲入一連串無法阻擋的悲劇事件，居民必須面對人類最深層的恐懼，考驗人性對愛、家庭、友誼、社群與國家的價值觀，小鎮的存亡也遭受嚴重威脅，瀕臨毀滅邊緣。


很喜歡本書裡其中的一段：

當萬事順利的時候 你以為人生巨變會擊垮你但惡運真的來到　你卻又撐了過來你撐過來不是為了證明給別人看你繼續下去也不僅是因為你想要如此而已你忍受一切也不是因為教堂牧師叫你這麼做你撐過來　是因為每個人內心都有一種單純的不屈不撓的　想繼續前進的渴求而且不管要付出什麼代價　你都會堅持下去即使你喪失了這麼多東西　多到你都不認得自己了但你剩下的東西就是你自己的一部份那是你從來不懂的部份　是你自己一值低估的部份也是你一直害怕面對的一部份你害怕有一天當你需要它的時候　它不會出現但事實上他正是你無法被奪走的部份。

讀這本書的時候正值心情低落的時候。身處本書這時代的人受到的不幸與無助實在太劇烈了，也讓我覺得自己實在是沒什麼好抱怨的，他們都可以重新站起來，那我應該笑著接受這一切嚕～